Pressure and Deadlines: The Fire Beneath Your Butt

“Writers are attuned to deadlines. Most, as students, wrote their term papers the night before they were due. We are energized by impending doom, motivated by a sense that now the work really must be completed; someone is waiting for it.” — Susan Shaugnessy, Walking On Alligators

“A deadline is, simply put, optimism in its most ass-kicking form. … Because in the artistic realms, deadlines do much more than just get projects finished. They serve as creative midwives, as enthusiastic shepherds adept at plucking the timid inspirations that lurk in the wings of our imaginations and flinging them bodily into the bright light of day.” — Chris Baty, No Plot? No Problem!

Raise your hand if you’ve ever written a term paper on the bus on the way to school because you’d put it off for two weeks. Yeah, that’s what I thought. Anyone who’s done any writing for a class, whether it be a term paper or a short story, knows how it feels to wake up with the cold realisation that it’s due. Today. And it’s not finished yet. It may not even be started. “Crap,” we may think, “and I was going to really try to do a fantastic job on this thing this time. Oh well. Let’s get it banged out so at least I don’t get an incomplete for not turning it in.”

My school life was full of such thoughts. As a long-time hard-core procrastinator, I frequently stuck my fingers in my metaphorical ears and sang, “La la la, I’m not listening!” when I had a project to do. It’s the most difficult for me to get started. Once I get the work begun I find I build up a sense of momentum and it’s easier to carry on. But when the realisation dawns that this five-page paper I’ve conveniently shuffled to the back of my mind for two weeks is due in three hours, some of which need to be spent doing things like eating and riding or walking to school, panic sets in. And panic is never, in my experience, conducive to writing something as pedestrian as a term paper.

It can be useful for fiction writing, though. National Novel Writing Month is a perfect example. Your plan is to write about 1600 words each day. Not a big task. If you start to slip, though, if you miss a day of writing, or put up a low word count for the day, the task gets bigger. Now you need even more words to catch up. At the end I’m usually behind at least somewhat, and that ‘Oh My God I have to HURRY or I’ll fail!’ feeling sets in.

And I write. I write like the house is on fire and sometimes it’s contrived and stupid, with wooden dialogue and idiotic plot leaps. But sometimes it’s good. Sometimes my characters surprise me, for good or for ill. When a secondary character suddenly runs off to war unexpectedly, it can be great for the word count, but potentially bad for the plot, which spirals off in an unintended and perhaps useless direction. More often than not, though, I find that those side-tracks can lead to more character development and even a subplot all their own.

There’s a feeling of triumph, of accomplishment when a thing is done. When I’ve finished up in here, particularly after beating Blogger with a stick on the days I’m composing my initial post in it, I feel like I’ve made a checkmark in a worthwhile box. “Well,” I think, “that’s finished. Maybe now I should feed the cat. She’s been trying to paw my door down for half an hour.”

I write here in this blog six days out of seven. Even bloggers get a chance to rest, right? I sit down and write nearly every day because I know someone is reading it. And even if those people aren’t waiting with bated breath for the next post to appear, it means something to me that they’re waiting. They’re anticipating. And it gives me the motivation to deliver. Even on days when my mind is being crazy and coming up with all kinds of weirdnesses, it’s part of the process and it’s my dim hope that someone’s entertained by it. My audience forms my deadline, the expectation that I’ll produce this blog (nearly) every day, and gives me the motivation to write.

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Pursuing your Secret Dreams

Greetings, my little ones! I’m glad to see you all here today. Let me hand out your graham cracker snacks to keep your busy little hands occupied whilst I get things going.

I spent a couple hours last night learning a new Jonathan Coulton song on the guitar, so I’m a bit more random and abstract than perhaps is normal for me in this blog. But then … yesterday was pretty out there, too, wasn’t it

It seems when I let my inner artist/inner goofball out to play, what follows is a period of lightheartedness and sometimes weirdness. Spending two hours listening to and playing a song about an evil genius who makes half-pony half-monkey monsters for his love, whom he keeps captive in his secret lair, may be partly to blame for that.

Songwriting is something I’ve never considered myself good at. I love to play guitar and sing, and I frequently find myself making up snippets of songs for no good reason. The Artist’s Way invites the reader to list some alternate lives, lives you think might be fun to try out. Whether your secret dream is or was to become a cowboy, an opera singer, or a comic book artist, Julia Cameron asks you to pursue a tiny piece of those dreams, just to get a taste. Maybe you can’t move to Texas and become an actual cowboy, but can you take a horseback riding lesson? Perhaps it’s not possible for you to be a drummer in a famous rock band, but can you get your hands on some secondhand drums and play them in your basement when no one’s around to hear? Indulging your secret dreams can please your inner artist and be a fun diversion from your workaday life. You might even find an opportunity to live them on a higher level, if you get the opportunity to vacation on a ranch, or bump into a couple of musicians who’d be willing to jam with you one Sunday a month.

When I indulge a passion I don’t focus on, like my guitar playing, it can open up windows through which other creative juices flow. I get something different out of each of my moods. My writing style varies, as does my subject matter, depending on whether I’m feeling down or happy, pedantic or just plain weird.

Think about your secret dreams today. Can you tap into them, even just for an afternoon? You might discover a whole new side of yourself.

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A Morning for Meandering

I’ve spent half an hour playing around on Toasted Cheese‘s site instead of writing in here. I am a bad, bad, blog writer. I also have typoitis today, apparently. My rate of typos is up about seventy-five percent. Possibly more. I don’t chart these things, but it’s a lot worse than usual. I blame squirrels.

As usual, I’m working in Kubuntu in the not-quite-as-warm-as-usual study, with my classical music stream streaming along in VLC. I decided on a whim to reduce the opacity of my text editor window so I can see my desktop through it, so it looks like I’m typing over top of a beautiful Caribbean beach. “Look!” say the tourists behind the camera, “there are words floating in the air, being typed with a plethora of typos which are then being backspaced over and corrected, before my very eyes! Hey, mysterious typer in the sky, you got some typo issues, don’t'cha?”

Yeah, we covered that already. But I suppose you were too busy ordering your girly drink to have noticed the beginning of this document, eh?

Clearly, I am in some kind of odd mood today. But this is my privilege, as I am a writer, and weird-ass moods are where we get some of our best stuff.

The Eyre Affair

Jasper Fforde

As I was perusing Toasted Cheese, I recalled Jasper Fforde’s series of books about the Bookworld. I’ve touted the Bookworld in other journals I’ve kept online before, but let me do so here: go read these books. Begin with “An Eyre Affair” and move onward from there. Ever wonder what the characters in your favourite stories do when they’re not being read? I didn’t think so. Read. You’ll find out. Fforde’s stories are hilarious and brilliant. Anyone who loves to read should grab them up straight away. Go! Go to your local library and seize them!

Ahem. See aforementioned odd mood. Yeah. This is probably the least professional-looking blog I’ve done in here since deciding to dedicated myself to writing about writing (almost) every day.

I mentioned the Bookworld novels because Toasted Cheese had for sale a tote bag emblazoned with the words ‘Boojum Hunter’. The word ‘boojum’, in Fforde’s novels, refers to a jurisfiction agent (read the books) who gets lost in a previously unexplored novel. It’s used as a verb in the Bookworld, but, having not read the books in a while, I had the thought that there was a something called a boojum which attacked bookpeople. I don’t think this is true, and if you go read the books, you’ll be able to tell me if I’m wrong!

Anyway, my apologies for taking time from your day to be random at you. But this, too, is an aspect of my writing life: the ‘what the heck /is/ this, really?’ bit where ideas float around in the air near my head like twisted, broken little dragonflies, each whispering fragments of coherent thoughts which are lost in the incessant twittering of the mass of them. May your dragonflies fly in formation today.

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Video Thursday: Silent E

When we were children, we learned the horrific rules of English spelling in school.  Things like "I before E except after C", rules that broke the rules.  English says, "It's always like this, except when it's not."  I suppose all natural languages have their exceptions, but English seems to have cornered the market.

As a kid, I watched Sesame Street and the Electric Company, like many others of my generation.  As an adult I learned more about the genius of people like Tom Lehrer, who penned and performed many fantastic and funny songs,  including a couple which appeared on those children's shows.  Here's one of my favourites: Silent E.

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Meditations on snow

I went out and took some more pictures of the snowy landscape.  It’s not often we get this much snow anymore.  We had several inches on Saturday, and  now we’re getting a lot more.  It’s also drifted a bit, so even with nearly knee-high boots on I couldn’t go far out into the backyard without risking getting snowy wet pants.  So I took photos of things I could see from the porch, then wandered around the front of the house and took photos of the front yard.

Snow is so beautiful when you’re watching it fall, seeing it collect on the branches of trees and plants.  It collects, like water does, but in such a different and elegant way.  Powdery snow sits in clumps on the dead flowers of my butterfly bush, bowing the branches, forming little rounded pyramids of snow.  It lays along the limbs of the trees, painting their dark bark with a bright highlight.  It gathers along fences, piles up on the posts.  It perches along the lines of my washline, occupying those spaces where the spiders set up shop in the warmer months.    It balances precariously on the smallest surface, clinging until it’s knocked down or swept aside by a passing creature or the action of the wind.  The snow wraps the world in a thick, cold blanket of white which seems so very comforting to me as I sit here in my warm room with my morning cup of tea, watching it tumble to earth in little fluffy blobs.

The wind is picking up a bit, so now the snow is not so much drifting to the ground as swirling that way, pushed around and down, forced to fly in harsh diagonals instead of floating lazily along.
It’s my favourite kind of snow to watch: the big flakes that I can watch individually, following one after another with my eyes as they describe a path from the top of my window down to where the snowy ground makes them vanish from my view.  It’s less enjoyable when the wind is authoritatively shoving the poor fluffy flakes this way and that instead of letting them find their own way.

Later on I’ll be out shoveling it off my driveway, so I’ll likely have an entirely different set of observations about the snow from that perspective.  But for now, I’m inside, warm, with tea, listening to classical music on Beethoven Radio and enjoying the show Nature is putting on today.  I give it two thumbs up.

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On Writing Partners

I've been advised that it's a good idea for a solitary writer type to have another solitary writer type with whom to commiserate, share advice, and celebrate when the time is appropriate. A writing partner, I've heard it said, is also good to keep a writer on track. If you have someone with whom you communicate regularly, even if it's just an email a week to say, "Hey, how're you going on <story idea>?" it will keep you focused, or refocus you, if necessary, and perhaps even make you feel obligated to keep writing on that project, in order to have something positive to report the next week.

I started out writing this blog as an exercise to get me writing every day out of habit. It's been successful in that vein – I am now compelled to sit down here and write each and every day, even if some days nothing useful comes out of my fingers. I also feel an obligation to you people out there who are reading this, to provide some kind of marginally interesting content to deter you from browsing away to sites with funny cat pictures or drowsing in your morning coffee. My audience forms part of the fire under my seat I need to keep myself going. If I don't have a reason to continue, a real reason that means something to me, it's very easy to just shrug and say, "Eh, it doesn't matter. I'll do it tomorrow." But once I let one day go by, it's easier still to let the next one go, and so on and so on. And I don't want that.

I don't have any advice on seeking a writing partner, having never done so myself. Should I ask a friend or a stranger? Someone local or someone I know over the Internet? How much contact do I want with this person as regards writing? And how should we communicate? E-mail? Telephone? Weekly meetings at a local diner or cafe? These are all questions I'll have to consider. And what do I want or expect my writing partner to do, and what should I do for him/her? Keeping my mind on my writing projects is key, particularly ones I tend to neglect, like my fiction writing in general and my novel editing in specific. I would like to have a writing partner critique my work, as I would critique theirs in return, if that's what they wanted.

In my mind, a writing partner is a colleague or friend who touches base with me a few times a month to keep me on track and offer words of encouragement. If you were to choose a writing partner, who would you seek, and why? What do you look for?

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Music to Write By

Many writers enjoy listening to music as they write, and I’m no exception.  Writing music is a popular topic on the National Novel Writing Month forums, and probably in other writing communities as well.  Everyone has their own favourites, their own needs, their own tastes.  Everyone gets something different out of the music they choose to write to.

The music I prefer to write to changes depending on the time of day and, sometimes, the weather.  I tend to listen to classical music on local station WRTI during the morning, and Soma.FM‘s “Groove Salad” in the afternoons or evenings.  When it’s snowing, I tend to prefer classical overall, and when it’s raining, I often bring out the jazz.

When I write, I need music without lyrics, or with words that blend easily into the background, as is common in the downtempo electronica played on Groove Salad and similar channels.  I can’t write effectively if I’m hearing someone else’s words in my ears while I’m working.  Even when I do data entry work I find lyrics or words disruptive to my flow of thought.  So unfortunately, this past week while WRTI has been doing their pledge drive, I’ve resorted to listening to other classical music.  I’d love to join the station as a member one day, but it’s not in the cards just now.  As a substitute, I play music I have on the computer already, like Holst’s “The Planets” symphony, which is probably one of my all-time favourites.  Radio France also broadcasts a classical station over the Internet.  I can tolerate spoken French in the background.  I don’t understand most of it at the speed the native speakers speak it, though, so that’s probably why it rolls off my brain fairly easily.

During National Novel Writing Month, I stumbled across Hooverphonic, a group that produces electronica that usually has lyrics.  I found meaning relevant to my novel in the lyrics of ’2wicky’, and so now I add Hooverphonic’s music to my repertoire of favourites for general listening.

If I ever write with music that contains lyrics, I tend to turn the volume down so they blend into the  background.  When I’m doing online role-playing, I may want a certain feel in my background music, but I’m still thinking up words, still effectively writing, so I leave the music as quiet as I can while I’m in the scene.  I did this with Hooverphonic during NaNo, but I don’t write to it now that the marathon month is past.

What music, if any, do you listen to when you write?  If you’re a creative of a different sort, how does music affect your work?

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